You never know the future...

I can tell you my whole body hurts and I feel horrible, but I do not know what I should feel bad. So G told me I have nearly cost him his job yesterday by saying something to IB that she has taken back to SE. I do not know what I have said to her, but whatever it was it has threathen his posistion. IB and several other co-workers always come to my office and talk about their bosses or others in the department. I am not sure what I have said, or what I have not said. But I suppose it most of been horrible. However, I am not losing my relationship over this. I am in love with G more than I have been with anyone else. But yet, I continue to struggle with my job and repeatedly get stoned. This is the 3rd time in which stones have been thrown at me or in my direction. This job does not mean that much too me. My heart is breaking and my soul hurts. Mostly because of the uncertainity that lies ahead of me.